Perspective Shifts Being a Mommy

Now that I'm a mom, and pretty much the full time parent for the time being that I'm on maternity leave, there really is a lot of effort that goes into staying mentally "fit".  Some days I have to force my point of view to be that of "I'm getting this amazing opportunity to spend 12 weeks with my first born" instead of "omg I'm stuck in this house again today and she won't stop crying". I'm not perfect, and I don't want to sound condescending to those that are in the latter of the two tracks of thought.  My child will have good days and off days and those off days are super frustrating and testing, but those short moments when she gives a little smile or looks at me like she's actually taking in what I'm saying make all that other stuff not matter.

I think the hardest part of all of this is being the sole caretaker about 80% of the time.  I have to rush to squeeze in a shower, toss a load of dirty clothes in, wash the bottles because we don't have a dishwasher, and take a few minutes to check and see what the day of the week is. Waking up in the middle of the night just makes everything blur together. That being said, we're starting to get a little bit of routine going, or I've just had an alteration of a my mentality and things are going much smoother. Now I shower at night when she goes to sleep, toss those clothes in the wash, and wash those bottles. I'm not going to put the pressure on myself to attempt to get her to stop crying or sit there waiting impatiently for her to fall asleep so that I can get to those "important" things.  I mean are those other things really all that important when it comes down to it? Not really. She's the most important thing right now and I want my daughter to know that I love her so much.  No, I'm not letting my house go to crap, I still have to vacuum every day (we have a large dog, and sand is always going to be my arch enemy here in Florida), but those things can take a back burner for the time being. Ahh this crazy, fun, stressful, amazing thing we all live called life.  


In other news, baby girl when to bed at 8:30 and I was able to make my own "moby" wrap. Thank God for youtube and all the amazing things that can be sought out on there!